The story of my life in prison started in November of 2010. I came to prison for the first time in my entire life.
When I first got to prison I was scared to death that I would never make it out prison alive. The first two weeks that I was in prison went pretty good. Then at the beginning of my third week I had two SUR13’s [members of the Surenos gang] force me to have sex with them. I only have one leg so I knew that I wouldn’t be able to get away. I said no to the two SUR13’s and they hit me with a paddle lock in a sock on my right temple which knocked me out and when I came to, I was laying naked in the porter’s closet with white stuff all over my face and butt.
I was going to report the gang rape on me, but when I was going to the officer in charge’s office, one of the SUR13’s that raped me told me that if I told anyone about the forced sex on me that they would kill me.
Then later on that evening I was on my way to my Christian Church call-out and the same two SUR13’s grabbed me and started to push my wheelchair toward the porter’s closet again. I went to scream and the SUR13 that was pushing my wheelchair put a knife to my throat and told me not to scream or they would kill me right there. I knew that I was going to have to do what they told me or I would be stabbed to death. So I did what they told me to do. When we got in the porter’s closet they told me to get naked again so that is what I did because I did not want to die.
After I got naked again, they told me to get on my hands and knees so I did what they told me to again. After I did that the older SUR13 got behind me and rammed his dick in my butt, and when I went to scream the younger SUR13 put his dick in my mouth. They forced me to have sex with them again for two weeks straight. I still have flashbacks of them forcing me to have sex with them.
I finally got so fed up with them raping me by forced sex that I threw a punch with my fist into the first officer that I saw, breaking his nose, so I was placed into segregation for a pending disciplinary hearing. As I was waiting on my disciplinary hearing to be done, I caught 16 more batteries on the officers. I was finally placed on OSR which stands for “Other Security Risk.”
Two weeks after I was placed on OSR, I was transferred from Lansing Correctional Facility to El Dorado Correctional Facility and was placed into the Supermax Segration Custody. I ended up doing two and a half years in Supermax lockdown. After those two and a half years in Supermax lockdown, I was then transferred to my new facility which is the Larned Correctional Mental Health Facility which is where I am being imprisoned to this current time. I have done three years at the LCMHF prison.
This is a true story about my life of being inside the walls of prison life. I have done five years here in prison. I will always have the flashbacks of myself being gang raped for two weeks straight. Prison life is no way that anyone should live.
I am going to have nightmares and flashbacks of me being raped in prison by those two SUR13’s for the rest of my life. I hope that this story will be an eye opener to whoever reads it.
Interested in reading more stories about rape and sex in prison? Check out these stories:
Transexual: I Was Raped By a Prison Guard By: Chase Burnett
When Prisoners Become Sex Slaves By: Derek Trumbo
Fighting the Ninja: Sex in Prisons By: Charles Norman
Thomas Guerra #98705
LCMHF
1318 KS Hwy 264
Larned, Kansas 67550
I been in jail and the bs that happens tbere is crazy. They are people that become gay for the stay. But in the real world they act like its a sin. So what im trying to say is that the dudes that did what they did were probably gay for the stay . and wanted to get there ahit off. Its realky fucked uo jow they did you and knowing u had to keep it quiet or they will kill u really freaken discust me.i was rape mot in jail but in the street by 2 and one was a friend. Well that i thought. And scare to tell anyone but the i told my cousin and of course 3 days later she was fucking him thats so sick i trust no one now u know stay out of trouble dont go to jail and even rhat it could of happen in the streets to u like me so re gardless trust no one. And ask god to give u strentgh and try to move on . god dont like ugly u do wrong it comes to u they did wrong trust and believe yhere paying the price . so ask god for forgiveness for any wrong doing and start doing right. And u wont have ro step into prison again. Hod bless u
Why must it be this way
You were a dumb guy, dude… if you have accepetd what they wanted from the start, you would be in good shape for the rest of your prison stay, maybe getting free cigarettes and some extra chocolate bars mainly because you were with one leg in armchair…. sometimes we have to do a great sacrifice of our pride to stay alive and well.
You might like being a prison bitch, but this guy didn’t ask for that. Whatever his crime he is doing time for that.
Not sure what crime you committed buddy in order for you to get sent to prison for many years but sorry to hear what happen to you hope things turn out for the better
Its so brave of a man to talk about this,our socity isnt there yet to be supportive enough towards raped men,i admire u more than i can put it in words and i hope u stay strong, i have ptsd and i can relate to the flashbacks thing
Our society isn’t there yet to realize as a whole that drug abusers shouldn’t go to prison for having an addiction(which doctors now say is a disease, they’ve developed). I’d bet this guy had a drug history to get there. I’d bet that because such a huge % do. And then there are people telling him it’s good he got raped for possibly struggling with an addiction? The system is slowly changing toward compassion with drugs, but right now it’s still so messed up that addicts are there with murderers.
I’m really sorry that happened to you. I haven’t been to prison, but we experienced the same thing. It took years to stop the thoughts, but I’m finally at the point where It rarely crosses my mind. With time you will be set free.