My name is Aleksandr Kolpakov. I spent two and a half years at Mesa County Jail fighting my case before I was sent to Buena Vista. One day while I was there, I was jumped in the chow hall and got rather bloodied up before I fought back.
Naturally, I was taken to isolation for the “audacity” of defending myself, a job the guards should have been doing. In isolation, I became suicidal and attempted to kill myself by wrapping a clothing tourniquet around my neck. I used a technique that applies pressure to the carotid arteries to deny oxygen to the brain while still allowing breath, thus preventing a choking impulse.
One of my “lookouts” wasn’t on board and thus signaled to the guards. They chained me up and took me to an even danker cell—this one bereft of everything save toilet paper and a tattered standalone mattress. They cut the clothes off my back and left me there, naked.
I wrapped myself in toilet paper like a mummy then ran around the cell, bashing my head against the walls. This prompted the guards to strap me into “The Chair,” a wonderfully barbaric contraption that inhibits one’s movements. The nurses would come in to check on me on occasion, pulling my hair back to see if I was responsive. I was not. I was either babbling and cackling crazily or totally catatonic.
Not since The Tragedy [Aleksandr is referring to the night he killed his girlfriend] had I experienced such a complete break. Unfortunately, this did nothing to salve their attitudes towards me. They huffed and puffed and generally took my catatonic personality as though they were babysitters and I was a petulant child instead of an adult in need of psychiatric help.
I write this not to elicit sympathy from you, dear reader, but to illustrate just how thoroughly backwards the criminal justice system treats its many—MANY—mentally ill inmates. Even those who weren’t mentally ill before they came to prison are likely to become mentally ill by the time they get out. Not that the prison staff will ever acknowledge this.
“Psychologists,” who treat their patients with skepticism, are a dime-a-dozen at the Department of Corrections. Such tactics gaslight the patient, slowing and sometimes completely reversing the healing process.
My threshold for “insanity” aside, whoever came up with this punitive “I won’t reward this behavior with attention” approach to suicide prevention is a medieval sadist. But these, ladies and gentlemen, are the people in charge!
Aleksandr Kolpakov 186431
BVCF
PO Box 2017
Vista, CO 81211
Oh, also…the “E5 pay grade” was his ROTC pay grade. He was NEVER an active duty E5. https://kiwifarms.net/threads/russian-deadpool-nereverine-pvt-2nd-class-aleksandr-kolpakov-1-3rd-of-the-skeptic-feminist.30864/post-2288846 Again….he’s just lying.
You can forgive your beloved for the murder of someone you claimed to care for, but not some random internet loon for doxxing ther person you replaced?
That makes sense. It really does.
You “know” Aleksandr from a safe distance, and you have the power to cut it off at any time, without fear of repercussions.
Perhaps if Heather had such a privilege, she’d still be alive. But Aleksandr prevented that. He killed her. The other “Harley” escaped with her life and her sanity, thankfully.
As is necessary when defending a proven liar and sociopath like your beloved, you offer pieces of what you call facts, while avoiding the larger truth.
Your beloved was not the war hero he claimed to be, he did not serve where he claimed to, and his “military career” did not end how he claims it did.
Your beloved claimed to be a combat veteran, and that he was only kicked out of the military for coming to a woman’s aid (a standard lie in his backstory).
Your beloved insisited Heather act against her wishes and be “physically affectionate in public” with another woman, just to please him. Such a feminist, your beloved.
I don’t hate your beloved. I hate what he did. I hate that he still lies about what he did. He removed a far better person than he could ever hope to be from this planet out of selfishness and spite.
He can keep spinning his tales from prison, where only the deluded will believe him. He can’t hurt anyone else for now, even his fellow inmates, aside from his boasts.
As for being a better man, sure, anyone has the potential to do that. But not someone who won’t tell the truth about anything, even when it’s killed someone he claimed to love.
I hope you survive your romance, distant as it is; you show little inclination to disappoint him, and you’re out of his reach. That may be your best chance of survival.
I have peace, because Heather had some measure of justice. Your beloved’s lies and your stalwart defense of him are just annoyances, like someone putting trash on Heather’s grave. It jsut needs to be cleaned once in a while.
Athena;
Were these not your words? https://kiwifarms.net/threads/russian-deadpool-nereverine-pvt-2nd-class-aleksandr-kolpakov-1-3rd-of-the-skeptic-feminist.30864/post-2457901 (This site has a wealth of information regarding Aleksandr, and the many contradictions and outright lies in his heroic history.
“You don’t know more about the situation that was going on with Aleksandr, Heather and Harley (and me) than I do, and I know more about some things than do you. Some of what you say is true, in that Aleksandr, Heather and Harley told me these things too. But regards Harley, Heather did care for her dearly, though she ended up concluding that she wasn’t physically attracted to her.”
The problem with loving Aleksandr as a sweet, innocent hero is that in order to do so, the truth must be sacrificed. Heather wasn’t willing to do that, and it cost her life.
Luckily, you love him from a safe distance, and enjoy the ability to cut him off without fear of reprisal. While that may be intoxicating, keep in mind others that weren’t so lucky.
Heather’s friends (I assume I’m speaking to Ashton) I don’t believe Aleksandr is a “sweet innocent hero”? He’s a flawed human being who committed a terrible crime, but is not evil and who always meant to do good, and who feels extreme remorse for what he did. I’ve never denied this.
As for Kiwifarms, I literally have the physical document from the US military proving Aleksandr was in fact a Sergeant E5 at one time when he was enlisted. Given Kiwifarms tries to claim (without knowing him personally) that Alek was only ever a Private Second Class, I don’t believe they’re exactly experts on Aleksandr’s true nature, compared with someone who has known him for almost 10 years now, knows his mother and sister and best male friend, and speaks to him every day. As well as someone who was actually in the polyamorous relationship with both Harley and Ivy.
And yes I did write the above quote (on a Jenny Kiss video that tried to claim I incited Aleksandr to kill Heather) but you’re taking it out of context. What was true was that Heather paid for Aleksandr’s caravan. That doesn’t mean that she was planning on moving to Denver by herself.
I notice you don’t address literally any of my other points disproving your claims but ok.
You’re under the impression I think Aleksandr is a completely innocent flawless human being. I don’t think that and in fact never thought that. That’s not why I still love him. The truth is nuanced. Someone can commit a terrible crime, cause immense pain to people (as he clearly did to Heather, her family and friends) and still try to do good and improve themselves. Aleksandr tries every day to be a better man, and I don’t expect you or Heather’s family to ever forgive him. But I love him for who he is, and I know more about who he is than you ever will. And that’s to be expected.
Again, I wish you nothing but peace and healing.
As for Kiwifarms, I’d beware of a community that is known for stalking and doxxing. Harley told me someone doxxed her and stalked her last year in her new relationship, because she at one time was in a relationship with Alek. Even though she had broken up with Alek months before Heather’s death and had absolutely NOTHING to do with her death, didn’t witness it or anything. This low life tried to ruin her new relationship anyway. I can’t prove Kiwifarms was involved but since they have a history of doxxing I would be careful about that community overall.
I’m not saying you shouldn’t hate Aleksandr, you should feel whatever you feel. I don’t hold the fact you hate Aleksandr against you.
I’m not writing this to convince you either, but rather to provide an informed perspective to any unbiased reader who might come across this article.
I hope you find peace.